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03 January 06 Tuesday And a Happy New Year! I didn't even manage to get into the festive mood and Christmas and New Year are gone...! Randy told me it's good that I'm at Au Jardin during their busiest period, yup, but I didn't expect them to be THAT busy. If we could, we'd be staying over in the restaurant over the Christmas and New Year weekends! But still, it was good fun to be working with that crazy bunch of people. I've yet to really settle down to ponder over the last year - mistakes I've made, appreciation of the happy moments, lessons learnt from failures, my often unnecessary temper flares - and what I want to achieve this year. I'll go where fate leads me to, because I have not found exactly what I want to do, and I do believe that everything that I experience will lead me there. So, new year resolution: To stay happy! Because being happy means feeling that my life is going right. ================= 22 December 05 Thursday
Early Merry Christmas everyone!! I'm back at Au Jardin, so it's bye-bye Bistros and good riddance! Nearly 2 months there is enough to strip me of my spirits. I'm still very disoriented in Au Jardin, with a new menu and all; to think that I was the one who prepared the menu training right before I left AJ 3 months back and now I'm the one who cannot recognise the food from that menu. It's embarassing. But still, it feels damn good to be back there. Then again, it somehow feels different now. It's no longer that fantastic nobody-can-do-no-wrong restaurant that was etched in my brains 3 months back, I'm starting to see the tiny flaws in the people now, and how they react in times of emergency. People who cover up their asses, people who start pointing fingers, people who react like how anyone would react when they smell trouble coming their way. It shows that, well, everyone is human after all, no amount of work conditioning can change that human instint. "The one who has never made mistakes has never tried anything new." ================== 16 Dec 05 Friday Windows of thoughts Last night I watched him sleeping But still, I still believe It's quite amazing how effortlessly lyrics can express such strong emotions. Anyway, Haven't been taking photos lately, I can feel my Nikon's life ebbing away. ================= 15 December 2005 Thursday On the wings of love Listening to: Butterfly kisses What's love and relationships when they become entwined in monetary issues, custody rights and divorce lawsuits? Why must something that's started out so pure and deep be tainted with such unnecessary unemotional scars, and suffer such a bitter end? "I regret getting married. My advice to you is that before you want to get married to someone, think 2, no, 3 times over." - An advice that I received from a colleague. I can understand the fact that love does blind many flaws, but that shouldn't be the reason to blame when the relationship turns intolerable, should it? Nobody really knows how a marriage will turn out for 2 parties, but isn't it the faith, trust and love that you have for that person that binds you two together till the day you die? The reason for some people to get married is so askewed nowadays, the ancient grounds for matrimony seems lost in this modern world. Has the concrete jungle hardened the souls of these people too? ================= 06 December 2005 Tuesday Your love is like a river, peaceful and deep How long has it been since you really set your mind down to contemplate? What's wrong with thinking that making money isn't what you should be living life for? It feels so caged up living here sometimes, waking up to prepare to go to work, then you waste some time doing split shifts and you work till 12am. How often do you feel that you're home? How often do you retreat into your own being and just.. stay there, in a state of nirvana - at peace with yourself? Anyway, that main picture has been up for some time, As much as I would like to call it a work of my own, I really have to credit it to a dive master I met at Kapalai - Alex! (Hope you're reading this man) A really really beautiful picture, I love turtles partly because of their soulful eyes, and this picture just took my breath away. ===================== 02 December 2005 Friday Dreary It's a scorching 12:58 in the afternoon, I'm sitting in my room with the fan turned towards me, my little baby nephew sitting on the floor happily chomping on my TV remote and mambling and gagling a language that only he understands. Looking at me with that eyelash-armoured eyes and pouty saliva-smeared mouth only when he throws the remote out of reach and needs me to get it back into his awaiting mouth. I just love this kind of lazy laid back kinda quality at home. You feel like you're wrapped up in a cacoon, all warm, cuddled and filled in things that are so dear and familiar to you. Away from people you don't know, away from bad air, away from things you don't want to see. Here, you're in the dead centre of your comfort zone. I'm willing for this 1 hour to pass quickly so I can get off to work and get it over and done with, and I'm hoping for time to stay still so I can spend more time at home. My frequent contradictions with myself. ================ 16 Nov 05 Wednesday Sebastien's Bistrot Well.. 3rd week at Sebastien's Bistrot, which is at Greenwood Ave (near Hwa Chong JC). I like the feel of that place, reminds me very much of how my own neighbourhood feels like because the bistrot is actually situated in the middle of a big private housing estate. In the day it has that kind of very lazy, warm countryside cafe kind of atmosphere, so you tend to feel relaxed. But of course, when people start streaming into the bistrot in the evening, we'll be feeling far from relaxed. Nothing much to say, really, because every change of outlet is the same old thing, getting used to the pace of work, the colleagues, the environment.. Nothing much is going on in my life except for that. A colleague of mine said, "Why so boring one, never go clubbing.." when I expressed my disinterest in the party marty hoo haa. And she went on to saying, "clubbing is the best!" So, am I a boring person because I don't always go clubbing? I often wondered, why am I not interested in clubbing? Am I going to regret it when I grow older? Of course, I do club sometimes; it does have a certain draw to it - the pounding music that will just seep into your veins, the hundreds of boogeying booties.. just makes you want to move your own bod to the music. But it doesn't feel like a necessity to me. Why, why am I not partying like how so many people of my age are? This is an honest question on my part. I'm not resenting why I don't club lah, of course, but it's just.. you know, a curiosity. But then again, like how the saying goes - do what your heart tells you to do. Maybe it's just my nature to enjoy the peace and quiet more. ================= 3 Nov 05 Thursday 10:21am Some very very overdued pictures.. Sipadan and Kapalai, islands at the North-Eastern side of Borneo, two very protected and very precious diving sites; A dream destination to most divers; not names well-known among non-divers (not lamenting); a sunny paradise in the middle of the sea.. I've been to paradise!
All right.. some underwater photos!
I miss that place. It's a place where I forgot all my obligations, where I forgot my days and my dates, where I wake up to a beautiful sea every morning with fishes going about their daily business right below us, where I absorbed alot more about the sea and her amazing inhabitants, where there's smiles all around and where I seal my faith to the sea for the rest of my life. There was a Ghost Pipefish who was pregnant, let's hope that she's safely given birth and her babies will all be as pretty as their mummy is. I can't describe what went through my mind when I was there, I just wished that I was there for longer than 5 days, and that I got to see more marine animals. But it's okay! We'll be back. This is not usual for me, I don't usually get this painful withdrawal symtoms when I come back from overseas. But this time, this trip really meant alot to me. The sea, the people, the experience, the company.. I can't wait for our next trip, and I hope that I'll be able to fulfill my dreams one by one, like how I fulfilled this Sipadan dream of mine. ============== 31 October 2005 Monday 8:56am "Intelligence comes into being when the brain discovers its fallibility, when it discovers what it is capable of, and what it is not" -Krishnamurti It's another new day at a new outlet, this month's stop is at Sebastien's Bistro. Kinda dreading it because I haven't been there before, and nervousness comes into play, and the thought of staying at home seemed very desirable, but... I can't because it's work after all. Getting really really tired of moving around every month, when you're just getting used to the people at the outlet you're at, you'll have to leave. You're faced with a new working environment, new colleagues, new everything and you have to get used to it all over again. It is very enjoyable at first, but after 3-4 times of doing it, weariness takes its toll. This is really not easy, and once again, I seek strength and courage within myself. Argh, I feel so battered. Work, relationship, myself.. Feel like running away, that would be the easiest. But you know when you've got to fight the fatigue when you've got to do it. ============= |
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